| Location | Peterborough |
| Age | 0 |
| Cause of Death | Still Birth |
| Date of Birth | 29/07/2008 |
| Date of Death | 29/07/2008 |
| Visitors | 2,929 since 27/08/2008 |
| Creator |
Eight months is such a short time to be alive but already you brought so much joy, love and light
into our lives. I will never forget the first time I saw your face, the first time I felt you kick
and the first time I held you in my arms. I have never helped create anything as beautiful as you
before in my life and all of us will never forget you teddy cub bear.
Please light a candle to let me know you have been remembering Jack. If you don't know what to
write a kiss (x) will do. Thank you to all that visit here and remember our angel son. It means so
much to know you are thinking of him.
The Story of Jack
From the moment I saw Jack at the first scan I felt such an overwhelming rush of love and a need to
protect and care for him. He seemed to be waving at me and his daddy Stevo which made us giggle.
My pregnancy was the happiest time of my life and every time we got to see our precious baby boy was
exciting. Jack loved it when I ate icecream, maple and pecan slices and chilli (not all together!).
He wasn't too keen on satsumas or coffee though so I didn't have them anymore. The first time Jack
kicked we were watching a film and laughing. Jack obviously wanted to join in the fun! He knew
Stevo's voice and would kick like mad when I left work and he could hear daddy. I remember at 24
weeks when we went for the 4D scan we were amazed to see Jack's face. He had my nose and sucked his
thumb like his daddy did! If you told me that you could erase all the pain I feel now Jack is gone
but I would have to erase those 8 months we had with Jack too then I would chose not to. Jack will
never be forgotten - he gave us so much and our love for him lives on in everything we do.
Jack's birth story
I started getting stomach pains on 28th July and put it down to wind. It was my first pregnancy and
everything had been perfect so I wasn't stressed about anything. The next morning I was in pain
still but timed the pains and they were irregular so we thought they must be false labour. Then at
lunchtime on 29th July my mum came round and said I should call the maternity unit as she could see
I was not right. I went in and this horrible midwife asked me about movements and when I said I
wasn't sure (as Jack's movements had slowed down but I thought it was due to the fact I was 35 weeks
pregnant and I was in a lot of pain that day) how many times he'd kicked that day, she had a go at
me and I began to feel awful and guilty. She put a heart monitor on my tummy and then called the
doctor in for a ultrasound and then we had to wait for another doctor. I knew then something was
terribly wrong and began sobbing. The next doctor came in and told me that Jack was dead. I felt
overwhelming guilt that this had happened. Then another doctor examined me and said I was 8cm
dilated. I was taken to the labour ward and was in the first stage of labour for a further 5 hours
and ended up pushing for 3 hours, feeling at times like I couldn't carry on as I knew with every
push Jack was closer to being born but he was not alive. He came out with the cord wrapped around
him many times. The midwife had to clamp and cut the cord whilst he was still inside me. Baby Jack
was delivered on to my tummy at 8.29PM. He looked so perfect - all pink and peaceful as if he was
sleeping. I heard the other babies crying on the ward and willed him to make a noise. We had him
with us in the room over night and then stayed most of the next day. I wanted to cuddle him forever
and it was so hard leaving him at the hospital.
The post mortem results show the placenta failed towards the end of pregnancy which meant Jack was
very under weight for his height but apart from that he was perfectly healthy. It is so unjust that
our little boy is gone.
The world may never notice
If a Snowdrop doesn't bloom,
Or even pause to wonder
If the petals fall too soon.
But every life that ever forms,
Or ever comes to be,
Touches the world in some small way
For all eternity.
The little one we long for
Was swiftly here and gone.
But the love that was then planted
Is a light that still shines on.
And though our arms are empty,
Our hearts know what to do.
Every beating of our hearts
Says that we do love you.
A message for your 1st Birthday on Wednesday
Cub bear. It is a year since I gave birth to you Wednesday. It should have been such a happy day...the best day of our lives. Instead it was the worst. We love you so much and wish this past year was spent watching you grow and enjoying your ways. Love you Jack xxxx
Doing the race for life for you baby boy
On Sunday me and Auntie Jo will do the race for life for you Jack. Because you showed us how precious and transient life is. We should have seen you grow up and live a full and happy life but instead you were taken from us too soon. Truth is though, there never would be a long enough time for you to be with us and then taken. You are our baby boy and we will hold you in our hearts for eternity xxx
Please help daddy
Jack, please be close to daddy at the moment as he is having such a tough time because he misses you so much. If you can please send him a sign to make him smile because it tells him you are close still. Love you cub bear xxx
thinking of you tomorrow on mothers day xxx
Dandelions from Heaven
Mothers day is coming And I wanted to send you a sign
something you can tell others; "Is from an angel of mine
So I searched the heavens high and low for that perfect thing....
And low and behold I found it.... And a smile I hope it will bring.
So when you look to the heavens and see the yellow stars in the sky
Just think of me .... your angel... in the heavens way up high
And just imagine those stars; are dandelions up above.
Yes! Dandelions are also in heaven; which you know how much I love.
So on this mothers day and you awake and feel blue....
You will notice those yellow stars... are no longer in view.
So look to the meadows and the dandelions you see...
Are the ones I've tossed down this mothers day from me.
And when you find a dandelion that has turned from yellow to white;
Youre supposed to make a wish and then blow with all your might.
For you will be blowing kisses to me in heaven above....
And I will be catching them and blowing them back sent with all my love.
Please know that l am with you.... on this mothers day....
And also in the days ahead.... God and I will never stray.
We will be with you in the morning ....when you awake and see the sun....
We will be with you when you say your prayers when the day is done.
For God and I will never be very far from your side....
For I can now be everywhere.... and God will be your guide.
So.... remember when you see dandelions it is your guarantee
That I am always close to you.... for dandelions are free to roam ....now just like me.
I will always be with you mummy....
Happy Mothers Day....
Love your angel in heaven.
Anonymous.
I am going away tomorrow for a week but you are always in my thoughts & in my heart xxx
I should be holding you
Good morning cub bear. Hope you liked the bright flowers me and daddy took you. Please give mummy strength tonight as I meet Sofia. It will break my heart to be holding a baby that isn't you. Love you xxx
Six Months
Today is six months since I gave birth to you Jack. Six months since my heart broke in a way I never knew before. The sun is shining just like the first time we saw you on that scan, the day you were born and your funeral. You bring the sun to us it seems. Me & daddy have been so low this week. We imagine how you would be at six months old - all the new things you should be doing by now. We see new life all around us which brings us hope but also intense sadness because you were taken from us after such a short time. We love you with all our hearts and will never forget you xxx
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